For every person, the process varies. The way we get anywhere in our lives is by our own unique road paved with our own uncertainties. Life might seem straight forward for some while others have every detail planned out. Yet for many, life is more a convoluted series of natural, even involuntary decisions that can seem to take forever to develop into clarity amidst the blur of life. Regardless of how you get to “here”, each little step you plunk down happens at just the right moment. You may not even realize where you are until you are standing in the middle of the plan you never saw coming.
5 years ago I was given a glimpse—a gift—of what my future was meant to hold. What could have been easy was instead wrapped in ego and so I spent every day fighting it, making it difficult. Staying home with the kids sounds simple until it requires you to let go of everything you have worked for; self-made career, facilities, programs, contacts…poof…gone…all by choice. I am slowly working on putting it all back together. Thankfully, my best guides have been my wife and kids. What I was scared to take on, and even more scared to voice, was admittedly what I wanted most and now, what I am most grateful for.
Ray Bradbury said it best: “Every morning I jump out of bed and step on a land mine. The land mine is me. After the explosion, I spend the rest of the day putting the pieces together.”
I think Ray is right; we re-build ourselves everyday through our chosen process. Mostly, in my process now, I sidestep Legos or Thomas the Trains and relish changing diapers.