At a time of year when everything in nature is trying to awaken I find myself stuck. The seasons in my neck of the woods do not really change much based on the time of year, but normally this year I feel a burst of new energy. I feel lighter, friendlier, happier and overall fresh and ready for life. This year my awakening into the spring has fizzled, or maybe it has not even started. I find myself yearning for being anywhere other than where I am. I find my soul napping quietly under a tree drinking sweet tea. I find it walking down streets and looking at nothing but my feet. What is wrong with me? Am I just so cynical about life that I cannot muster up some new energy to yearn for new growth out of myself? Maybe we awaken without noticing…no scratch that , I do notice. I feel a sense of quietness in me and I realize that I have hit a point in my life where I do not awaken as I used to and you know what? I am ok with this. I find that to awaken is to be present. I find that my soul struggles more and more with balance and my spirit takes over as if on auto pilot. I hear this voice in my head saying, everything will be ok, go quietly, seek love. I am always present. I am always enough. There is nothing wrong with me, my soul is present even if it isn’t awakening again as it did in the past. Sometimes homeostasis is ok. I am ok.