During this colder and drearier than average winter in the southeast, I’m longing for, craving, and honestly needing warmer, brighter days. I think the fate of my sanity is being decided by that bright yellow orb making an appearance – soon. Normally winter for us isn’t the pretty postcard scenes of freshly fallen snow with icicles decorating railings and trees. Winter for us means dampness, mud, general grayness on the worst of days, but also beautiful days of clear blue skies and warm sunshine to balance the cold wind. But this year those wonderful days have been missing – went on vacation I guess, and it’s those winter days that I wait for, impatiently.
This year I’ve become a wimp; hiding out in the house, piddling with necessary household chores while my kids have pushed themselves outside to endure the cold, grey, rain, and mud. Busy schedules keep them focused on school work and mostly unbothered by the weather, as long as the latest cold virus doesn’t find them.
Often, I’ve resorted to various time sucking activities like TV and my tablet for more hours than I care to admit. My creativity, energy, and drive seemed to disappear after the grayness took over. Sorting through pictures from last April, when wildflowers start making appearances in my yard with their pops of purple and yellow, doesn’t inspire me. Can it really be another month or so until the temperature rises high enough that I can remove a few of my everyday layers? Could it really be another month or so before the ground warms enough to support any new growth in the yard? Heck – I’ll take the weeds – if they bloom – anything bright and cheery with promises of more warm days than cold ones.
The forecasters promise we are coming out of this dreadful weather trend, and aren’t they always right? I’m at least hopeful. But for now, sitting in my chair, I hear the rain falling once again. Mentally making to-do lists and drinking my favorite hot tea, I feel tiny beads of sweat form along my hairline. Smiling to myself, I realize that at least for now, I’ll have my hot flashes to keep me warm.